After reading Danielle’s post about nothing, I felt inspired
to write one of my own.
I feel like I’m at a bit of a strange impasse in my life. A
fork in the road. I am feeling the most extreme pull that I ever have – one
that tells me that I need to make a choice, and soon. A choice to either
continue down the road I’m on, working but dreaming of a life without a job,
truly making my own way in this wide world.
As far as dreams go, I have been dreaming excessively in the
past few years of a life without the necessity of a 40-hour a week paycheck,
creating my own life and making my own way from the ground up. My dream job is
one that involves a whole lot of crafting, writing, and being able to use my
mind and talents to make a great life. Not punching a clock and letting someone
else write my history for me.
That’s a big reason why I started this blog – I love writing. Since I haven’t been
published in magazines in a couple of years, I needed an outlet to get out my
thoughts, ideas, and to put these crazy thoughts of mine down somewhere. I do
everything that I can to lead an honest life, and I hope that it translates
into my blog, as well. That’s why I want to increase my number of posts, as
well – I want to gain readers, and have that feeling of community I feel that I
lack on occasion.
Since I was a kid, I’ve always felt like a bit of an
outcast. I’ve always had strange anxieties about dealing with people, like I’m
always being made fun of, or at the very least, that I’m not part of the crowd.
I want to build a group of friends from all over the place! And every day, with
every post, I hope to continue to build on what I already have.
I just want to have a life that I can feel good about. That
I can be proud of. Not that I am not proud of myself at this point, but I feel
like I could do, and can be, so much more than I am.
It’s so funny to think that this post was supposed to be
something about nothing, but in reality living my best life is one of the
biggest things on my mind every day.
Have you ever felt this way? Like you were meant for more?
What are you doing about it?
