Showing posts with label social anxiety. Show all posts
Showing posts with label social anxiety. Show all posts

Tuesday, November 19, 2013

You know, I've been thinking....

I've been thinking of a lot of things lately - but namely, having to do with the blog, I just feel like I haven't been completely honest with everybody. Like my personality isn't shining through the way it should, and maybe that's why I'm feeling as stuck as I am.

For as far back as I can remember, I have had issues with social anxiety. This dates back to being a teenager. Part of that is my inability to let a lot of people in, and the other part is a little voice in my head that subconsciously tells me that everyone is laughing at me behind my back and I'm the butt of the joke. If you asked me why, I couldn't tell you. It's just the way I've always been.

Recently, I've realized that I do a lot of living inside my head, instead of going out, meeting people, and doing new things. And you know what? It sucks.

I live by myself with two cats, work a full time job as well as a part time job, run a handmade business, and just try to do things that make me happy when I have time, like making things and reading books. I keep myself busy, maybe so I don't have to think about things so much.

With that being said, I am from this point on going to make a concerted effort to let you guys, my readers, in a bit more. To learn more about me, as a person, and not about what books I like and nothing else.

I no longer want this blog to feel forced, and I'm going to do everything in my power to make it better.

So, with that, here's a makeupless photo of me with my main man, Vegas.


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